I’m not quite sure I understand your intent. What is the purpose of this nonsense. Are you really that starved or deprived of attention ? If this is truly who you are, I hope things get better for you and you get the help or love you need. If it’s just for kicks then you seriously you need to get a hobby. Whatever is going on with you, find someone to talk too. Not all people are bad, surrounding yourself with positive people might help, you may pick up a thing or two. Just saying